2008-01-04 E = mc2

Friday, January 04, 2008
E = mc2
So it is 2008 and what have ya done?
It has come to this. I have examined and inspected and realised a truth.....I am a drifiter, a nomad, a Polly. Always running from something new to something newer which explains the long list of countries I have ran to without a penny in my pocket or a safety blanket to wrap myself in when all falls. Its fun for a while but sometime down the road, we grow up and nothing is new anymore. It happenes when you realise that results come to the same everywhere you go. And when that time comes, you learn that it is not the environment or situation that needs to change but you.
Its tough growing up. Its hard to look at yourself and point all 10 fingers to yourself in blame but ultimately neccessary. For sometimes in life, there is someone or something that is worth the change and the self-examination. The fear of blaming yourself and thus, pushing all blame on others or history, the failure of consistency that frightens yourself but in turn, destroying all constants in your life. These are equations that finds no solutions and thus variants need to change. The single variant changeable by ourselves is still, ourselves. I have never been mathematical, always going by feelings and sensitivity, but once in a blue moon, they may actually come to the same solution.
We can only hope that in solving the mystery of life at every day and every moment's change can be in time to not make us lose what is most important to us. And that in itself is another equation only solvable by ourselves. Knowing what you want as soon as you can and geering towards that that one day you might sip pina coladas under a large palm tree with a smile that cannot be erased by even rainstorms.
Here's hoping that 2008 is fruitful to you as I make it mine. Ciao!